I started this journey forever ago it seems and there have been many successes, failures, and memories to last a lifetime. I’ve hit rock bottom a dozen times and each time the bottom is further and the climb out is harder. I’ve been on top of the world many times too, but I rarely stopped to enjoy the view. I was always stuck on how I could have done it differently, better, or faster. Life has a way of working itself out, good or bad, we just have to give it time and another chance. My nickname for this blog will be FitChic and this is my hundredth “second chance”! I spent a lot of time focusing on the negative and just existing; going through the motions of life because I wasn’t where I wanted to be or who I thought I should be. I dwelled on the insignificant issues failing to see the larger picture. Life isn’t about one or two days, meals, missed workouts, or binges. It’s about the culmination of many days over many months and years that matters. I see this now. I am a recovering Disordered Eater, Diet-aholic, and a survivor. I am learning that small changes can add up to something great and that sometimes the small things that we do need to be over-looked. Obsession is my mistress and it’s been a rocky relationship with an even more volatile split. I’ve made every excuse in the book and pointed every finger. I sprinted when I should have walked, and was blind when the world around me was at its peak of perfection. This is my second chance, another do-over to get it right, to get life and living right! I want the simple things in life but I need the health to enjoy them. I have been discovering my limitations and casting aside my excuses. After all, it’s the excuses that keep us locked down and stuck in our harmful habits. I want to walk with a bounce in my step and my head held high. I want to breathe freely! To be able to ride my bike up a hill and not collapse afterwards would be amazing! To wake up feeling energized and not hitting the snooze button in itself would go a long way. I want to understand how my body functions and what makes it unique from everyone else. How does it work and the effect that certain foods and activities have on it. I want to be pain free with the ability to look at the world for the beauty it holds, not the challenges it presents. This is my hundredth second chance and I don’t know how long it’s going to take me, but I know this; I will succeed! Success doesn’t wear a certain dress size or weigh a particular number. In my case, it doesn’t have time constraints either. Success is finding comfort within my own skin and the ability to maintain the active lifestyle of my choice! I am not perfect and I will have bumps along the way. It’s that I get back up and try again is what counts. The world is my oyster and it’s time I become an active participant and not a spectator looking through a foggy window. Along this journey I hope to share my successes, failures, and thoughts about my experiences. I am determined and scared, but I also know that there is much to learn and discover. The opportunity to heal and begin again is refreshing. What tomorrow brings is uncertain and not guaranteed. All we have is today so let’s make the most of it! Comments can be sent to FitChic at FitChic_2010@yahoo.com

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