The Power of ONE
I woke up yesterday morning so disoriented and feeling a little depressed over selling my house and moving. There is so much work to do and it seems like it is taking forever. Well today I can finally see the end of this as its probably now 95 percent done. But nonetheless, yesterday I woke up and wanted to stay in bed all day and do nothing but EAT. It has been years since I felt that way – but yes that old FOOD FAIRY came-a-knocking. She brought her SAD SISTER along with her. It seems they had nowhere else to go and they landed right in my head.
I know you all have heard me say that even though I have lost – and kept off – over 140 pounds for over 25 years, I still have those days like every FOOD ADDICT does. And yes, I still have my days of feeling a little out of sorts and yesterday was one of those days. Heres what I did: I literally forced myself to get up and get on my running clothes since Ive decided to train to compete next year for the SENIOR OLYMPICS (50 and over) OH MY GODI AM A SENIOR. Watch out Grandpa, here I come!
You cant stay in bed all day if you want to achieve your goals, so I got dressed, took Hannah, my Golden Retriever with me to my favorite coffee shop. Guess what? They had just delivered hot DONUTS. Are you kidding me? Didnt they know that I was already feeling vulnerable? I was thinking about binging all day. It took all of my might but I got the coffee and went to my training park. I summoned all my will and started to power walk. Well in no time I began to get my head together and I did a nice 4 mile run. However, I was thinking about binging the whole time. I wanted pizza, my favorite food. Thank god there are no really good pizza shops open at 8am. Then I wanted ice cream. Id have to go shopping for that. Finally, I make the dreaded stop at Dunking Donuts. Yes, my favorite other place. I walked up to the counter and ordered a coffee and get this – I ordered one – and only ONE MUNCHKIN DONUT HOLE.
Yes, I actually decided that in the scheme of things that you can control a binge at any time, if you stop, breathe and think about your behavior. I had a serious talk withmyself on the way to Dunkin Donuts and I knew I could control this and I had more power than any Food Fairy or wave of depression during a somewhat stressful time. Now, do I have control all of the time? Of course not. However, it is all about the behavior you choose when those feelings start to erupt. Even after all these years I still have to fight the battle. But when I use my MAZDA METHOD mental skills training for my motivation the battle is usually won. Remember, you have the power to create the change in your life.
Have a great day. Debra